As If I Care..!

Am off to Goa :D. Will be back by 31st July. In the morning,in the morning,in the morning by the Sea.... :)

He: "Get an attitude,gal!" Me:"Hmm?" He:"I mean,how can you simply talk with anyone?Kuch bhaav dikha!" Me: (Wondering what has hit him) He:"I'll tell you how to do it.You know,talk in jargons and metaphors,when you argue show down the other person,show that you know more..and your blog..!! Post some sense...I mean the last one you posted.." Me: (interrupts)"Hello?Didnt you read my rights? I have the right to not make any sense :)) He: "See? That's your problem!! Take yourself seriously.Dont let people mess around with you. Get a 'no non-sense' image. I'm telling you,people value you only if you play hard to get!" Me: See...I dont talk or post to judge or appreciate my 'value'.I do it coz I like it,and if people think I dont make sense,so be it.I'd rather spend time laughing and chatting instead of trying to pose as someone who's "Miss.Know-it-all." He: "Sigh! You dont get it,do you...

Till this happens .... >

Right to:- I. Not make any sense. II. Have my mood swings. III. Think too much or to not think at all. IV. Get the best deal. V. Act in the interest of my well being. VI. Protect my loved ones. VII. Dream. VIII. Work towards my dream. IX. Stand by my beliefs / people I believe in. X. Love/hate anyone I want to,as I want to. XI. Take decisions pertaining to my life. XII. Argue. XIII. Question. XIV. Stay silent. XV. Pamper myself. XVI. Not give any reasons/explanations for my actions. XVII. Not share my personal life with everyone. XVIII.Resist authority/responsibility/actions I don’t approve of. XIX. Be objective when the situation demands. XX. Take vengeance. ......And that's the way it is.

Whats ur personality? Chance to know about yourself ! The chance to know about yourself like your character etc. This test was devised by a famous team of psychologists from a British university. Here it is..... Imagine you walked into a small hut by the river in the jungle. You pushed open the door, in front of you were 7 small beds to the right of the hut, and another 7 small chairs surrounding a small round table. In the middle of the table was a round food tray with 5 kinds of fruit in it. There are: a. Apple b. Banana c. Strawberry d. Peach e.Orange Which fruit will u choose? Your choice reveals about u Test results : a. if you chosen apple: that means you are a person who loves to eat apple b. if you chosen banana: that means you are a person who loves to eat banana c. if you chosen strawberry: that means you are a person who loves to eat strawberry d. if you chosen peach: that means you are a person who loves to eat peach e. if you chosen orange: that means you are a person who ...

Am becoming a loner by the day.I dont like crowds,I prefer to stay away.I go to canteen 15 mins before lunch time,have my lunch and push off before the crowd starts trickling in.In the lab,I prefer occupying a system where none will disturb me while am at work. In the Psych class today,the Prof was forming groups for the Dissertation assignment.Groups of 3 and when he announced my name with 2 others,I simply said, "Sir,I'm going all alone on this".He insisted,so did I.Either I do it alone,or I dont do it at all. Dissertation is something that requires constant focus and I cant keep running behind people asking if they're done with their part,neither do I want a change in the quality of the paper across the topic.It'll be a herculean task,considering I'll be doing the work meant for 3 people,but as long as I get to do my own thing,I dont care.I know I'll manage. I have my friends telling me I've become impatient and very reclusive these days.Impatient.....

Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me,dear Zarine, Happy Birthday to me...:)

Result Oriented.Goal Oriented.And if you happen to be in a B-School,Placement Oriented.Focus on the end.Nothing else matters if you come out with flying colors.The process,the means - be damned. Before starting,you need to know where you are headed.Doesnt matter if most of the time you end up elsewhere,but you should always have an idea of where you want to be. Ask people to do something and the question pops up,"What will happen if I do it?" None's bothered about how it'll be done.Tht's a secondary concern. I dunno,mebbe nothing's wrong with this approach,but should it neccesarily be this way,all the time? Why cant people simply let go and enjoy what comes,without bothering about the outcome? Is it so difficult to detach yourself from the result? Do you really need to be so sure about everything? Does it really help? And what if you knew that something wouldnt give ya a favorable result,but the process is something you'd enjoy - would you still go ahead ...

I have a pal who recently had a break up.They knew each other for good 10 years and fell in love in the last 4.Different cities led to a some distances in relation,but they managed fine.One fine day the dude called it off.Lady couldnt take it. Has being crying for the past 5 months.Still blames some action of hers for the happening. Goes paranoid at times. Keeps checking his mail box (he once gave her his p/d),doesnt take his calls,curses the chick the dude dumped her for and keeps crying all over again. Get a life.If you cant handle your emotions,dont venture out into this world.Sit cocooned in your house where none will hurt you.Heart breaks happen and if you cant live with them,why fall in love in the first place? Nothing lasts forever.Nothing is yours forever either.Why abuse your body and life this way? Does the world start and end with that one person? If you say 'yes', seriously,GET A LIFE!

Oh k...was taking it rather leniently till one of my pals blasted me for 'breaking the chain'!..Boy,how I hate conforming to rules and doing what has to be done..:( With due respect to Geetu,Subbu and Apurv for tagging me,I shall try to add to this noble cause..! No. Of Books I own - Dunno...rather dont care...keep reading them - if I like them, send it over to Seema to read and if I dont,send it over to the Raddi waala. Last 5 books I bought - Excuse me :(...but the list goes like - Kotler, Org Behv by Robbins, Fin Mgmt by Prasanna Chandra,Winning by Jack Welch and an Archies comic :D 5 Books that mean something - Umm...a toughie... 1.The Kiss - Danielle Steel - Ok,I know her work sucks,but this one was good... 2.The Alchemist - Paul Coelho - Not tht it made me realise my 'calling in life',but had few good instances here n there. 3.Ummm.... 4.Lemme think..... 5.Mebbe Dilbert's Principle? :P Seriously folks,I'm at loss here...cant recall anything that meant a ...

So much has happened in the week that's gone by and hardly anytime to blog it...if this is an indicator of things to come,I doubt how much of bloggin I'll be doing once am into a job and (sigh) marriage. Wanted to blog about false acts and masks we put on in certain situations, on how difficult it is to let your past let go of you - Yeh,sometimes it refuses to fade away n is there on ur mind all the time, on how life will be without few people am so close to and almost addicted to :(, on how Lee and Reebok are a bad choice for a family function, and what to do if you still happen to land up in them!, on why celebrating small successes matters so much...on how loving matters so much...and my exp in my Managerial Psychology class. This post is dedicated to all those posts which never saw the ray of the cathode tube (ok,tht's a bad PJ :( )....at times I miss living my life so much...

Yoohoo,II year starts! :D...All of us met each other after 4 months! And wht reactions :))! "Arey,inspite of staying in Chennai,ur color hasnt changed! U r still as dark u were before!" :))..After the registration,we all chillaxed in the canteen.And yeah,one thing everybody wholeheartedly agreed on was - Studies are of no use!! Whatever we did in our Summers was either learnt on the job or required common sense n smartness,rather than Kotler and Strategies!! We all took a resolution to open the books just before the exams n instead spend rest of the term doing something more productive! It sure feels great to catch up with pals.But then,as all of us chose different electives,we can meet only during the breaks :(.Our college has got 11 streams n over 100 electives to choose frm!! I was sooooo confused between BPO Management and Managerial Psychology - both new courses,offered in handful schools across the globe. One was so good frm Placement Perspective,considering IT and ITes...

How I hate this word.Sorry! Not coz being apologetic is wrong,but it hardly means one is being apologetic!! It's just a way to save your skin.Utter it and go scot free.And you know,the best part is this line:- "I said, I'm sorry! Wht more do you want me to do?" Yeh!! Just that word of yours can make up for all the pain n hurt the other person has gone through.Moreover,tht person should be grateful to you for that! Why dont people mean it when they say it? If you cant stop yourself from repeating it,why do you say it then?Can't you simply say,"I'll try not to do this again"? Nopes.Coz that's committing yourself.U'd rather say Sorry and get done with it.No wonder,I've begun to abhor promises too. Then they are people who dunno how to handle 'sorry's'.The first category would get all apologetic themselves! "Arey,it's ok yaar! Koi baat nahi!"..Easily forgive the other person. And there is the second category. I'...

As an individual,one has certain rights. And the right to know is one of them. To know what you want from yourself,from people around you and from your life.Similarly,people around you also have the right to know,incase any of their actions can hurt you. But then how does one know,unless one asks? The problem with expectations is that a lot is assumed. A husband 'expects' certain things from his wife,and more often than not,he assumes she knows about them,and vice versa. How often do you hear these statement in fights, "Weren't you supposed to do this?? / I tght you would know! / It's but obvious! " All based on the assumption that the other person knows what you expect. Amongst the comments in the 'Art of Detachment' post,somebody said detaching oneself would be protecting yourself from pain and turning away from love and would stop you from living a full life. Pain and tears. No point in running away from them. They always find their place in our liv...

Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over!Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over!Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over!Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over!Summers Over! Summers Over! Summers Over!Summers Over!Summers Over!Summers Over! Phew!! Was sloggin since feb! Finally! :D :D :D Err..I know I was supposed to make a post on the lines of my previous post to complete tht chain of posts, but I COULDN’T STOP MYSELF FROM POSTING THIS FIRST!! I AM SO HAPPPPPYYYYYY!!!!! Learnings from the Summers ?? Who cares? :)))))))))) Got 10 days hols before the 2 yr begins..wow..am a half MBA now :)))))))))))…The Diro wanted me to address the jrns,but I took them to picnic Saturday last, so my ice breaking session is done with.Dont think will oblige the Diro this time around :D. The plans for the next 10 days,umm…will definitely not sleep much,I can always do tht when ...

Continuing from the previous post, a key element in loving yourself is taking care of yourself. Again,easier said than done. Why does it hurt so much when people walk away from your life? Why does one feel so lonely and down? How can someone have the ability to cause us pain in such a capacity? Why cant people let go easily? Why are so many tears and heartbreaks a part of the process? Nothing lasts.Really nothing does.At the end of the day,you are all by yourself.And most of the time,you are either sad or just plain blank.You wish for someone who could've being there to share your blues,but the stark reality is...even if someone is there,s/he wont be there forever. Rem'ber before those presentations/speeches/plays in front of an audience, no matter how much anyone told u to be confident, you always had to have a lil talk with yourself , assuring yourself that everything would be ok ? Tht "C'mon,you can do it" pep talks before the D-Day. Revising your subjects, mak...

I get hurt.Mebbe others get hurt too.And cry too.And get fed up of crying.Chuck everything, and say "To hell with this world"..decide to move on.And find themselves crying again. From my observation,good and nice people cry more.Coz u wouldnt come across bigger fools than them.Am not talking abt goodness or being nice as foolishness.The problem arises when they expect others to be good too.Why will others be good to u? Jus coz u were good to them? Ha! Quid pro quo works only if someone is rubbed the wrong way.Otherwise people are happy for being treated nicely and conveniently forget about it. To be loved in return.The eternal human need.Love.People want to love someone. And want to be loved in return.And my god,what all they endure for this! If only a fraction of that effort was spent in loving oneself... Ever thought if you love yourself? How much? How do you love yourself? What do u do when you love yourself? Why is it so difficult to love yourself? Coz u know ur shortcomi...

Came across few awesome one liners.. "Deal with the world the way it is, not the way you wish it was." John Chambers , CEO, Cisco Systems "If you obey all the rules, you miss all the fun." Katharine Hepburn “Nobody gives you power. You just take it.” Roseanne Barr "If you think you're too small to have an impact, try going to bed with a mosquito." Anita Roddick - complements of Yvonne DiVita “Manners will take you where money won’t.” Coach Vince Dooley. “It’s important to be thoughtful while you’re being thought provoking.” Sharon Stone "The thing that makes you exceptional, if you are at all, is inevitably that which makes you lonely." Lorraine Hansberry: complements of Kirsten Osolind "Everyone has talent. What is rare is the courage to follow the talent to the dark place where it leads." Erica Jong "The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone t...

So very often when you want to give up on your dreams,you come across people who've made it. Through sheer determination and perseverance. People who had faith in themselves,and took the required steps to convert dreams into reality. Of all the people I know,I admire very few.The ones who made it where I couldnt.The ones who did what I couldnt.The ones who repeatedly beat their own successes and dont rest on the past laurels. Folks for whom the deed matters more than the word.People who live it in the spirit,not in the letter. I wish I could be like them.More action oriented.More driven.More successful. I saw 'Robots' the other day,and the movie had an awesome line :- "If you dont fight for your dreams,they'll haunt you all your life".

AT times,you wish you can simply throttle some people to death!!!!!!!!!! You do so much,and people dont even have the time/courtesy to acknowledge! Wht was tht ancient Indian saying ," Nekki kar,kuwe mein daal"..Do the deed and forget about it. WHY WHY WHY?? As if doing things doesnt take up your time and resources! Do it,and then grin and bear it. The other person takes it for granted. And shamelessly will turn to you ,if it has to be done again! And you will do,coz after all you arnt supposed to turn down tht person. One royal kick on his a** the first time, will ensure that next time around he doesnt take your services for granted!! Seriously the concept of selfless service makes me laugh. You do things coz u like to do them.You derive pleasure/happiness/satisfaction frm it.You are serving some or other need of yours through it.Be it physical or emotional.Just because monetary benefit isnt involved doesnt mean it's 'selfless service'. I really dunno wht's w...