May 28, 2006

Dazed

At times I'm a little lost. Something is on in my mind, but I have no clue what it is. Moving ahead becomes difficult coz something is holding you back. Restlessness and anxiety take over. What on earth is happening?

I feel like walking alone in the night. Guess that should soothe me down...

Hmm.



© Zarine.

May 27, 2006

All the best, buddy.



Vipz, all the best as you start your career. My prayers will always be with you. Stay firm during the tough times for they are the signs of coming happiness. Take care of yourself and hold yourself above shallow characters. Make mistakes and learn from them. Grow from strength to strength. In any moment of doubt, just remind yourself that you are one of the most precious things I posess. And anything that I prize is the best that Life can offer to anyone.

You are the best - Never forget that.

Will stay your pal forever,

Zari.



© Zarine.

May 16, 2006

Killer V.

Vengeance is a powerful driver. It takes you over and makes you lose sight of sense. To give back as you got it gives one a sense of Power. The power to make/mar someone's life. In the heat of the moment - when the other person is at 'your' mercy - you have to make the call. Pull the trigger or let him go. All those past moments flash in your mind, hormones start racing your heart and you pull the trigger. Peace. Its over. Or is it a begining of a tumultous future?

I have seen people take revenge. I remember that smile on their face and their emotionless eyes. Some people hurt/kill others to remove all that symbolised a painful past. They think by removing that person, they can shrug off their past. Or if they give that person his 'due', they'd feel better. It's been a while since I saw someone, who destroyed/spoiled someone else's life, lead a peaceful life himself. Has anyone of you witnessed this?

Not taking revenge is considered a sign of cowardliness. I believed in this too. With time I have realised, seeking revenge worsens matters. Instead just let him be. Nothing can hurt a person more if you ignore his presence, his existence. It hits him right there. He might then try to make your life difficult and thats when you should ask him to buzz off. Self defence should not be compromised, come what may.

Few things grow when ignored, like those annoying weeds. But what caused those weeds to appear? Lack of proper gardening? And now that they are there, what do you do? Ignore them so that they wreak havoc in your garden? You weed them out, right? Use herbicides and all that? You uproot them. Kill the cause. And they come back next year, and you do it all over again. You arnt exactly 'killing' the cause, are you? So you think what causes them to recur every year. You figure its your gardening. You arnt doing the right things. Then you plant all the right plants and take care the right way. The weeds dont turn up in all their grandeur next year (but they'll still be here and there).

Lesson? Killing the cause wont help. Kill the habit within you which is causing it.



© Zarine.

May 13, 2006

I babble too.

Sob sob..the last post reminded me of the times when I saw this flick with Vipul the Pahwa, right a day before the final exams..! :( Vipullllll...........:(((((((((

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Waise, on work front..me got a nice boss (touchwood, *nice* is an understatement! ). He keeps enquiring if I have resumed blogging?! Dont stop blogging and get a life outside work are his commands for the week :)). Okay okay..am not blogging coz he asked me to..(see see boss, am so nice :P ), am blogging coz I feel like..(yeh right!! :)) )

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I thought of penning down a post on "Lies and all that lies beneath them" (waah waah, what a title!!), but I felt so good after thinking out the title that the post will now have to wait (hehehehehe..lazy me cooks excuses like nobody's business :D )

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Umm..thats it for now.

Vipul come back soon re...dumbass, who goes travelling in hot summer??!!!



© Zarine.

Ziddi ladki.


What I reallllyyyyyyyyyy like abt this pic and the song "Khalbali" is the "break free" mood it carries. Umm..thts me all the way :)

Aha..I feel like typing down the lyrics (since all u folks arnt fortunate enough to hear me croon it :D ). The parts of the song I love :-

hone hone de nasha khone khone ko hai kya - 2
ek saans mein pee ja zara zindagi chadha
hai yeh toh ek jashan tu thirakne de kadam
abhi saanson mein hai dam abhi chalne de sitam

aankhon mein hai khalbali
dhadkanon mein khalbali
mausamo mein khalbali
hai khalbali

kaisi yeh tabdili hai
sheeshi botal pee li hai
raat neeli neeli hai
hai khalbali

And this one :------------>

Ziddddiii ziddddii ziddddiii zidddiii
Ziddddiii ziddddii ziddddiii zidddiii armaaaan
Ziddddiii hai toofaaan
Zidddddii hum bhi yahaan..!

Yeh right, outright ziddi and proud of it :).


© Zarine.

May 01, 2006

Thinking aloud

This post was long overdue..but then I had to make it. :)

I've lead a strange life. One where I dont get what I aspire for. When I settle for something lesser, all that I wanted falls right into my lap! I always knew myself as a fighter. I'd fight for anything and everything! So when life doesnt give me what I want, I take what it gives me and turn things around.

With time, I have seen myself grow more comfortable in my skin. My definition of achievement/success are my own now. I no longer aspire for someone else to commend me for what I've done (rather I wince when folks say I've done well!).

It's gonna be a straight from my heart post...so I might sound vain at times...

Thanks to all the people who walked out of my life...who ditched me..dumped me...betrayed me. Now I know that the only person who'll see me through all this is Myself. I have had instances when I almost broke up with those who are now in my "Indispensable Folks" list. I chose not to react. I dont believe in vengeance. Invariably God does that for me. I let them go. And they came back. Few others might choose to do the same...I wont stop anyone. 'Coz I know, I'll live through it all...

I joined my first job a week back. It came outta blue...and I chucked my campus offer for it. This place is helping me realise myself. My AVP tells me, "I see you changing this place." I dunno if I'd. But I'd for sure make anything better than it is now, if I can.

I dont make promises to myself anymore. I just make it a point to deliver all that I can. Life is so simple this way. The way to bigger things is to get the smaller ones right.

I dont have a "Love" in my life. All that I have are coupla pals who I hang onto. These folks make up for tht one person. They are my love, life, support system and my anchor. 1 week into my job and I know close to 100 people already. Making pals was never a problem with me....but calling them when I need to has been. But this gang - guess it goes without saying....

I dont blog the way I used to....and I seriously dunno why. Mebbe coz now I simply talk and discuss what I'd normally put down here.

Life has been strange. I've been through shit. I've been on cloud nine. All that I wish now is the ability to handle situations with panache...as they come, when they come.

Life is beautiful.
© Zarine.