So often I find myself in this situation....wherein you dont want to be with a particular bunch of people..coz obv u dont like them or the way they are...but they are having fun and chilling out..and you want to be part of that 'fun'...so you are like.."ok...lets compromise" and u actually dont end up having either your self respect or that 'fun'.

This whole thing of being accepted is so wicked. Why the hell dont I have people I can easily gel with, around me? Its often those vain, bitchy creatures who make me want to scream. But if those are the only ones around..what do you do? Its a choice between being by yourself in your room or out with them. And its not easy, when such choices become a frequent thing.

So at some level, I'm so indifferent to all this..but at another level, I have this whole 'social image' thing which bugs me no end...you know, when how important your existence is defined by number of parties you get invited to. You want to be important..its a good feeling..but then..what are the means? Mebbe here's where you decide..what do you want to be important for? Answer to this question would help ya decide where you'd want to focus your energy.

Think, think.

And with this post, I surpass the number of posts I published in each of the last 4 years. :)

© Z.

Comments

Senorita said…
:)

Have fun!!! But with a clause - Don't loose the Real you in order to be Popular you !


"coz Real you is a beautiful human being :)
Jul 19, 2010, 2:20:00 PM
Sardar said…
It means come back to ppl whom u want to be with... ;) They must be waiting :)
Jul 20, 2010, 11:09:00 PM
Senorita said…
+1 To the Sardar!!!


Hez absolutely right :)
Jul 21, 2010, 10:07:00 AM
Nikhil said…
"Why the hell dont I have people I can easily gel with, around me? Its often those vain, bitchy creatures who make me want to scream."

Thanks :)

And to the sardar: I hope you mean only after you return from Leh !!
Jul 22, 2010, 1:32:00 AM
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