Yeh kya hai?

It's such a turmoil at times...what's right...what's wrong...peace of mind...selflessness...living for others...living for self..

Am a lil disturbed off late...and it has a lot to do with the way things are in my life right now.The more judgmental one is, the more the disgust. This is right...do it this way..tht's not how its done...In the effort to to bring in some sanity to life, we bring in lots of rules, hoping that it will streamline everything. But it again doesnt work that way, does it?

Peace of mind is lost when we anticipate & experience sorrow before it comes. It's also lost when we think we deserve something & dont get it. This 'deserve' germ can actually harm us in more ways than we can imagine. Are we such good judges of self to understand what we truly deserve?

Unhappiness...is majorly coz we dunno yet what makes us happy. If somebody is happy doing his own thing, and we cant do our own thing, we become unhappy. Its so relative. Why cant my happiness start & end with my world? Why does it have to be measured against someone else's?

Insecurity...yet another demon which raises its head when you are so unsure of things.

Kya hai?? Itna kya tension hai? marr toh nahi jaoge na?! Aur agar mar gaye...toh tension kis baat ki hai?? :D

Chalo smmmyyyyllllleeeee :)))))))
© Zarine.

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Anonymous said…
I think this happens so often to everyone. Everyone wants to be carefree but then can one enjoy life being carefree. Now maybe you would like to be in the same life when you used to write on toughmorns but then you realized that there were somethings you needed to care about. Just give a thought and realize the difference between routine and discipline. Maybe you are getting caught in a routine life.
Moving ahead with a purpose is necessary but then focus is not on what we deserve but what we need to achieve. We work to achieve something and if we quantify our effort with what we deserve then we might not get what we wanted to achieve. Maybe we might shell out some extra effort but undoubtedly that will get reimbursed in the future.
Well thoughts reflect our feelings and thus if we supress our thoughts tehn we might over a period of time stop feeling freely. Thus even if we know that a thought is bad we have to accept it and acknowledge it but we are not bound to act on it . Try and find out a positive thought to base your actions. We might compare our work to others but then this comparison should not change the way I work(a change for the worse i mean). Instead of changing the way you work , think reasons why your kinds approach is better than anyone else's.
Arre itnaa karne se self-confidence toh aa hi jaayega, then what is the reason for insecurity.
yeah tension nahin confusion hai jo tension jaisa lagtaa hai. Blog more often and you'll be more certain.

>> Sorry this reply got bigger than the actual post. And clearly i didnt intend to give so much gyan , but the fact is that I too haven't been blogging for quite some time and thus had gone through these realizations in last few days. Had i not read your post i would have written a similar post as you have written. Realized that when i write than i give some thought about my life. So will be blogging actively again. Hope you too do so.
Jul 29, 2007, 2:41:00 AM
Anonymous said…
"DAARU" is wakt ke liye hi bani thi.... LOL

Kuch nahi this is the "real" life. It was bound to happen sooner of later my dear. Sooner the better...aankhen khuli rakh ke chalo to hi fayeda hai!

I am hoping ur MBA was aboe to raise ur IQ - use it.

There is always next time....
Jul 30, 2007, 4:57:00 AM
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