As If I Care..!

Tanha yun guzarte hain, Koi saaya saath nahi... Issi lamhe ke liye Itni mehfilon ko raunak kiye the hum? Yeh mere dost hain, Apni wafa mein jeete hain Inhi ke khaatir Duniya se baaghi hue the hum? Yun mera zameer hai Mujhse juda aur ajnabee Iss kambakhth ke liye Apno se duur hue the hum? Yeh kaunsi jagah hai Kaunsa jahaan hai yeh Iss dard-e-duniya ke liye Jannat ko thukraa aaye the hum? - Zarine. © Zarine.

It's such a turmoil at times...what's right...what's wrong...peace of mind...selflessness...living for others...living for self.. Am a lil disturbed off late...and it has a lot to do with the way things are in my life right now.The more judgmental one is, the more the disgust. This is right...do it this way..tht's not how its done...In the effort to to bring in some sanity to life, we bring in lots of rules, hoping that it will streamline everything. But it again doesnt work that way, does it? Peace of mind is lost when we anticipate & experience sorrow before it comes. It's also lost when we think we deserve something & dont get it. This 'deserve' germ can actually harm us in more ways than we can imagine. Are we such good judges of self to understand what we truly deserve? Unhappiness...is majorly coz we dunno yet what makes us happy. If somebody is happy doing his own thing, and we cant do our own thing, we become unhappy. Its so relative. Why ca...

Oui mah babeh! Its been a looouuunnggg time, I say! Arey access nahi tha! Okay, thts a lie. Mood nahi tha? Shayad. Whatever. Me's shifted base to Delhi. Work in Gurgaon. What a place. (Now make whtever u want to, of tht last stmt! ;) ) Hot hai, rains bhi hain..pata nahi yaar..kuch samajh nahi aaraha...ajeeb si jagah hai. Sahi saathi ka saath warna vaat lag jaati. My blog has become soooooo boring! Bah! But they say, people who have a life off the net, have seldom any on it ;). Cold coffee...aha..in this summer..hmmmuummmm. Waise got to be in Hyd during the unfortunate incident of the bomb blast. Sukoon nahi hai logon ko..kuch na kuch karna zaroori hai. Sigh. Updates will be..am a maasi..mah best pal gave birth to a cute baby gal. Am yet to visit them.........:(((((((((((((((((((( I wanna go back to Delhiiiiiiiiiiiii..................... and not for the city, puhleez! Quote of the day :- Shut up and listen. Ciao. © Zarine.

Often what it takes to excel is - Pushing yourself to the edge - Asking the right questions - Keeping your eyes at the next level - Being excited about learning. And most importantly, be in the company of Achievers. All the best. © Zarine.

There once was a time, When neither knew for sure If this was the it For which we'd hardships endure Then came a time, When he didnt know If we'd last together For our actions went against the flow There was a time too When I didnt know If we were meant for each other For it would create a row Now is the time When we know from the Lord above Our togetherness is prime For there is no other way we know Love. © Zarine.

When old pals meet after a loooooonnnngg time A :- Hiiii!! B :- Hey man!! Whatta surprise!! A :- You bet yaar! Kaisa hai? B :- Bas chal raha hai...tu bata...? A :- Mast hai ...aur kya haal chaal.. B :- Theek thaak...sis got married last oct A :- Accha?! Great man...and u? B :- Time hai yaar..kaheko marwaa raha hai...tu bata? A :- Same here yaar... B :- Ummm..yeh...aur... A :- Aur toh bas...chal raha hai B :- How's XYZ? Koi news? I lost touch with most of them man A :- Haan..thik hi hai...kahan time milta hai yaar.. B :- Haan...true... A :- .......... B :- ........... A :- Chal toh phir milte hain.. B :- Haan boss...stay in touch, haan? A :- Of course...take care..! B :- You too! Cya. The later in life you meet with a pal/acquaintance, the shorter the first conversation will be. Its as if the feeling hasnt sunk in...and they part before it does..promising to meet again... Jab mile, tabh mil na sake.. Na jaane abh kab milenge Agli mulakaat ke bharose Iss mulakaat ko chod chale... © ...

One of the most disturbing things in life is people saying that you are changing and they dont like the change. You really dunno how to deal with that, do you? Firstly, hullo...am I really changing?? Next, why wouldnt you accept it, if you like me so much? Accha, leave the second question alone. Lets focus on the first one. Am I changing? Am getting to know more of myself, and trust me, its not a pleasant experience! So much is happening so fast...its like am moving at a top speed and have no control over the direction! Or do I? Brrrrr! I need to outgrow myself...I wanna be like a snake who sheds off the old skin and renews itself every year. The past year has been too much for me and my fragile nerves. They didnt crack, thankfully...but now I seriously think am getting onto them! I feel like am on a roller coaster ride...up..down...swirl..twirl...wheesshh!!! Hang on! Wait! One thing at a time. Professionally :- Its almost a year since I started my career...and I feel so 'unaccompl...

When most of the times in Life, we are on a lookout for that 'something special, something unique', we forget what we have with us couldnt be less special, less unique...if only we cared enough to look at it. There's this thing about one person from my past....I keep thinking about him off and on for the kind of impact he left on my life. Not surprisingly, I somehow expect to figure in his list of 'things to remember' too...only to be give myself a sad smile everytime he conveniently forgets about me. What amazes me is...its not that I dont have Love in my life now or I miss him so badly...but the fact that I expect him to recall me the way I recall him... Life moves on...wish we too did.. Woah...thanks to 19 straight hours of working..I feel my cabin floating around me now..would log off now...got a very very hectic week ahead...and need to let the Love of my life know I'm missing him right now...all alone here.. Love always, Z. © Zarine.

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With just about 30 posts in 10 months of this blog's existence speaks a lot about how prolific am at it these days. The old one had about 140 in almost 2 years :). Wonder how much this indicates about my interests and priorities. Have never rated blogging as a TP thing, but the fact that I write less now....does it mean am talking to myself a lot more lesser? Just a lil amused that how much I've learnt to live with Life, as it is. Taking things in my stride, compromising, being least bothered at times. 30 times in last 10 months...thats so unlike Z. I know, deep down am keeping a low profile. As I keep discovering about myself, the more I choose to stay silent. (Btw, won a Silver Award for my performance. With 8 months of work ex under my belt...sounds good :) ). The only time I get flustered is when things dont go as planned at my work life. Have become such a stickler for perfect execution that misses get to me. Personally, its being a roller-coaster. I feel totally sapped e...

How important is it? When we meet someone who we like and would love to be associated with, we often greet the person with open arms in our lives. We realise the person's importance over a period when we spend time/moments/secrets/dreams with them. And one fine day, we find the person gone. Lets not talk about a natural separation called Death, we cant do anything about it. It's about those separations which we knowingly/unknowingly bring into a relation. Some people cant stand others getting too close to them. They start behaving in a wierd manner and try to create distances. Some people want the ones who are close to be more closer...classic eg:- Best friends marrying each other. What about those who fall in neither category? These folks usually dunno how to handle it. They get edgy when someone gets too close...and they move away...and when the drift starts, they get uneasy and try to hold on, thus creating a mess outta the relation. Why cant we decide who we want to be clos...

Why is man so scared of Death? When it is so inevitable, when it so certain then why cant he accept it easily? Life is a step ahead of Death. The day it stops walking, Death will overtake it. Live, anyway. Die, we will, anyway. © Zarine.

Hmm...goof ups...mistakes...galtiyaan. Kisse nahi hoti? Mujhe se bhi hui hai, My Lord!! Jaise ke:- Clicking reply on my own mail and then sending the reply to myself :| It was meant to be forwarded!! Confusing 2 associates with same initials and then sending the wrong one for redeployment. Poor thing, she was wondering why I wanted her to move out! :)) When not aware of a particular policy, trying to figure it out through common sense. Lesson learnt :- Not all policies are common sense friendly. Changed the date of a major event and forgot to inform all those involved! :| It was a BAD experience! :(( **Added after Vipul's comment** - I had to draft a mail whose recipients were all the top honchos. I very meticulously wrote it...checked and rechecked the sentences, spellings..even read the sentences out aloud to see how they sounded! (DuH!). After a thorough check....clicked "Send". A minute later, one of them replied with a curt 1 sentence mail :- "Mails shoul...

Lil amusing that I havnt blogged about my work life yet!! But me being me, sigh, anything is possible :). I'd rather talk about how it feels being an HR Professional. You are expected to know all the answers, be it policy related or "why my salary hike isnt reflecting in my pay slip!" sorta queries. You get invited to every team's offsite and parties. None wants to be in HR's bad books, you know ;-) You gotta be empathetic towards the other members (I hate calling them 'employees', dunno why!)...doesnt matter if you've had a bad day, you just cant pass off the heat to them! Ops (Operations i.e) would love if you said 'yes' to whatever practices they're following. Say 'No' and then you get to see the real drama unfold :). It's imp that the top management buys in your ideas, else none below them will respect it. You touch lives directly. The smile/gratitude one gets to see when an associate gets the kinda project he wants or has h...

May Allah accept our prayers, and more importantly, forgive our mistakes. Ameen. © Zarine.

Kuch aise bhi lamhe hoten hain Jinke hone ki umeed nahi hoti Choo kar jabh yeh guzar jaate hain Toh muskuraate aansuon ki keemat nahi hoti Yun toh dekhten hain hazaar khwaab Par har khwaab ki taqdeer haqeeqat nahi hoti Jis pal koi haqeeqat khwaab ban jaaye Aise pal se zindagi muflis nahi hoti Mat karo na-umeed is dil ko Bujhte chiraag se roshni nahi hoti Toofan se darr kar jo saahil par reh jaaye Aisi kashti ki koi manzil nahi hoti. ~ Z. © Zarine.

I look forward to the day When I can forgive myself For all the promises not kept For all the memories forgotten. I look forward to the day When I can dance my heart out Sing to my soul's content And not care what they're thinking. I look forward to the day When I can smile Inspite of knowing that I failed Inspite of knowing that I'm weak. I look forward to the day When my resilence gives strength Everytime I give in, And to everyone who gives up. I look forward to the day When I will not wake up with my mind occupied With the past follies With the future make-ups. I look forward to the day When today will matter more When past gives me reasons to smile When future gives me hope to live on... I look forward to the day When I shall not measure myself Against standards set by them Against perfection. I look forward to the day When relativity ceases to exist In my existence In my relations. I look forward to the day When I can smile With just a thought of a pal With just a tho...

When I first saw the trailers, I developed disgust for this movie. Yet another mega starrer-tear jerker. Why cant they use stars for a better purpose?! On a sad sunday noon, me and mom decided to watch this one. All geared up for a sloppy show, I left the theater thinking "Finally, Bollywood is growing up." I found the movie interesting. Because it had so many flawed characters. None was perfect..(Abhishek came close to being the perfect man, but the night he makes Rani realize her 'inadequacies', lo..! he's one amongst us.) I wonder... If SRK would've fallen in love with Rani if she was a successful woman, like his wifey. If Abhishek ever cared to look beyond his own nose. "I love..I love..I love..; She doesnt...she doesnt...she doesnt." Ever cared to find out why she doesnt...? Why couldnt Rani get over her obsession with "Love" and cast one caring glance at her hubby... If their (SRK and Rani's) love was so true and strong, why didnt...

Yeee Hawww. Some post the last post was. Poor ol' Z sounded as the most wretched creature on Earth! Sob, sob. Hehehehe, raat gayi baat gayi..:D Saari bhadaas nikaal di uss post mein...now it seems so light within.. Oww kaay...Apun ki life mein ek twist aaya hai...jiski agar sahi angle pe banking nahi ki to accident hojayega :D So while I negotiate this curve...keep zooooommmming folks..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yo! © Zarine.

Hi.Am down. For a very personal and strange reason. For a reason that none is to blamed. For a reason that it was none’s fault. For a reason that Life sucks. For a reason that whenever I choose to be close to what I like…Life smirks at me. For a reason that I can never get to do what I really want to do. For a reason when my heart wants to speak out and reach out to someone, I face a vacuum. For a reason that I am alone when I want to celebrate an occasion with someone I want to… For a reason that Life has decided that I stay the Loner that I am. For the reason that every happiness I want is delayed. For a reason that I don’t feel the happiness when it actually happens. For a reason that the fire within me is dead by the time its time comes. For a reason that reaffirms my faith in the thing that what I really love and hold dear shall always stay away from me. For a reason that those who love me have to be kept at a distance, ‘coz I cant get them close. For the reason that when I want t...