As If I Care..!

Continuing from the previous post, a key element in loving yourself is taking care of yourself. Again,easier said than done. Why does it hurt so much when people walk away from your life? Why does one feel so lonely and down? How can someone have the ability to cause us pain in such a capacity? Why cant people let go easily? Why are so many tears and heartbreaks a part of the process? Nothing lasts.Really nothing does.At the end of the day,you are all by yourself.And most of the time,you are either sad or just plain blank.You wish for someone who could've being there to share your blues,but the stark reality is...even if someone is there,s/he wont be there forever. Rem'ber before those presentations/speeches/plays in front of an audience, no matter how much anyone told u to be confident, you always had to have a lil talk with yourself , assuring yourself that everything would be ok ? Tht "C'mon,you can do it" pep talks before the D-Day. Revising your subjects, mak...

I get hurt.Mebbe others get hurt too.And cry too.And get fed up of crying.Chuck everything, and say "To hell with this world"..decide to move on.And find themselves crying again. From my observation,good and nice people cry more.Coz u wouldnt come across bigger fools than them.Am not talking abt goodness or being nice as foolishness.The problem arises when they expect others to be good too.Why will others be good to u? Jus coz u were good to them? Ha! Quid pro quo works only if someone is rubbed the wrong way.Otherwise people are happy for being treated nicely and conveniently forget about it. To be loved in return.The eternal human need.Love.People want to love someone. And want to be loved in return.And my god,what all they endure for this! If only a fraction of that effort was spent in loving oneself... Ever thought if you love yourself? How much? How do you love yourself? What do u do when you love yourself? Why is it so difficult to love yourself? Coz u know ur shortcomi...

Came across few awesome one liners.. "Deal with the world the way it is, not the way you wish it was." John Chambers , CEO, Cisco Systems "If you obey all the rules, you miss all the fun." Katharine Hepburn “Nobody gives you power. You just take it.” Roseanne Barr "If you think you're too small to have an impact, try going to bed with a mosquito." Anita Roddick - complements of Yvonne DiVita “Manners will take you where money won’t.” Coach Vince Dooley. “It’s important to be thoughtful while you’re being thought provoking.” Sharon Stone "The thing that makes you exceptional, if you are at all, is inevitably that which makes you lonely." Lorraine Hansberry: complements of Kirsten Osolind "Everyone has talent. What is rare is the courage to follow the talent to the dark place where it leads." Erica Jong "The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone t...

So very often when you want to give up on your dreams,you come across people who've made it. Through sheer determination and perseverance. People who had faith in themselves,and took the required steps to convert dreams into reality. Of all the people I know,I admire very few.The ones who made it where I couldnt.The ones who did what I couldnt.The ones who repeatedly beat their own successes and dont rest on the past laurels. Folks for whom the deed matters more than the word.People who live it in the spirit,not in the letter. I wish I could be like them.More action oriented.More driven.More successful. I saw 'Robots' the other day,and the movie had an awesome line :- "If you dont fight for your dreams,they'll haunt you all your life".

AT times,you wish you can simply throttle some people to death!!!!!!!!!! You do so much,and people dont even have the time/courtesy to acknowledge! Wht was tht ancient Indian saying ," Nekki kar,kuwe mein daal"..Do the deed and forget about it. WHY WHY WHY?? As if doing things doesnt take up your time and resources! Do it,and then grin and bear it. The other person takes it for granted. And shamelessly will turn to you ,if it has to be done again! And you will do,coz after all you arnt supposed to turn down tht person. One royal kick on his a** the first time, will ensure that next time around he doesnt take your services for granted!! Seriously the concept of selfless service makes me laugh. You do things coz u like to do them.You derive pleasure/happiness/satisfaction frm it.You are serving some or other need of yours through it.Be it physical or emotional.Just because monetary benefit isnt involved doesnt mean it's 'selfless service'. I really dunno wht's w...

Let's hope for the best.Everything will be alright.Hope that things get better.I hope this nightmare ends.We hope,somehow,things will take turn for the better. Hope.A fool's paradise.We hope only when we are having a bad phase. I feel,Hope has being one of the biggest reasons for holding back people from doing anything constructive.Hope gives them a sense of false security that the bad time will subside and good times will prevail.Hope is life.BS. Rather have a vision of where you want to be,what you want to do,how you plan to change the present circumstances to a more favorable one.Get up and start working on them.Just plain hoping will lay an egg on those plans. Hope makes a person handicap.He ceases to act.He leaves things to destiny,'hoping' it'll change for the good.Whenever someone tells me,"Dont give up hope,such things keep happening.",I cringe.Mebbe such things happen...but what can I do to not make them recur? Just sit and hope they wont happen a...

Alright...I got bored of not bloggin :P. But the reason I finally decided to punch in words on this blog was my pal,Chinnu.And am gonna get real senti here :P. Once upon a time,a decade back, I had to separate from someone. That someone who was responsible for so many 'first's' in my life. My first best friend. My first sacrifice for a friend,came thanks to her. My first rebellion against my parents. We stayed in touch through letters and cards ( she hates emails!!) all these years..havent seen how we look after those lanky teenage years...but then,we lost touch in the past two years. She was busy with her interior decoration career and I was busy with God knows what :)).And outta blue she called today :).I gasped so loudly in my office,my colleagues thought I had seen a ghost :P. She still rem'bers :). And her call brought all back all those years...from my 3 std to 6 std flooding back into my memory. Infact,my first 'sacrifice' for a pal is a cute story which ...

And being an obedient citizen of the blogland,I too took this quiz :D.The result is... You Are a Pundit Blogger! Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read. Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few . What kind of blogger are you? Smart ok...I knew that :D...Insightful..umm..really??!!! And a quality read?? Ok,enough,stop laughing now!! :D.

Wokay!!! Time for a poem :D..! And coz a good pal had called up to enquire why my blog is getting so philosophical day after day,this poem is on a slightly lighter vein :). A general timepass stuff...but I enjoyed writing this one,always wanted to write a narrative poem..:)! Once there were two lovers, Let's call them Lala and Lily. Lily was a serious gal, And Lala was wily. Lily felt the love was forever And Lala's name made her heart a beat miss Lala felt it took forever For Lily to give a nod for their very first kiss. And so Lily and Lala Were on the ninth moon,romancing Amidst the fun and gala, Lala realised,something was missing. He turned around and asked Lily, "Am I the only one you love,sweetie?" Lily laughed and said,"Of course,yes silly! You are my heart and am your cutie!" Lily believed she too was the only One In the life of her handsome knight, When one fine day under the Sun, She saw Lala with a hot chick,Emy Wright. Hell broke loose and Lily ...

Quite some time since I wrote a poem yaar!! Age is catching up or wht? Am I losing my touch ?? Is the world getting to me ??? Am I going insane ???? Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

At lunch today,all the trainees were discussing where we would see ourselves few years down the line.Of course,this question was already posed to us by our Project Manager on our first day but the answers then were the rehearsed,'politically correct' ones. Today the answers were different.Some were frank enough to say,"No idea".Some said the usual "Job-marriage-kids".I surprised myself with my answer.My answer was different too,from the first time.I said something like this :- "Few years down the line,I see myself walking all alone.People will come and go.But none will stay.They will either race ahead or lag behind.But none will match their pace with mine.All my pals will still be there,and I'll still be lonely.Life for me will be work or no work ( not more work ;) ).Nothing more,nothing less.I dunno if I'll be smiling more often then,but I sure would be complaining less for, I shall live the way I want to." Baap re...mom wouldnt like to he...

Today my colleague at mah office said this :- "Sometimes ,as u are rushing through ur daily routine,racing against time and madly lost in the humdrum of a banal life,you simply stop.You feel you cant go on anymore.And then you think of that someone who loves you more than anyone/thing else in this world,and you smile.Time to move on :)." And when I visited her place,her Granny said, " You kids will remain as kids till you get married.Dont call yourselves adults as of now!" Oooff,when will our elders grow up!

- When you face bad times - When people with,above and below you just want to pull you down - When nothing goes right - When your self-worth is questioned - When your work is not appreciated - When people sneer at you - When you know,it cant get worse than this - When people you banked on turn their backs - When nobody has time for you - When eyes cant be stopped from welling up - When you know you deserved better - When you are cheated - When you dont feel like trusting anyone Just let the moment pass.Hold on to yourself.Know that no matter what anyone says/does,you should keep faith in your abilties.People come and go.All that stays is you and your conviction.

Sometimes you throw caution to the wind,decide you'll do what you want to do,and then somewhere down the line you have your own doubts. At times,it's so easy to walk the most treaded path.Everything abt it is tried and tested and all you need to do is follow the footsteps.That insecurity of 'What Next?' is absent. You flow with the tide and it does help.I dunno,but how many can risk following their own path.At times,so much is at stake,that u better stick to the routine.You can hardly afford to make any mistakes on the new path.Every step has to be a calculated one.Though you started off by throwing caution to the wind,you end up being more cautious than before.But then,I guess,at the end of it all,the good part is that you gain confidence that no matter what comes,you can handle it.But do you have to risk things to learn? I'm such a rebellious person at times.And then I wonder,what/whom am I rebelling against?Is there something wrong with the system,or with me?The ...

Yes,yes!!! Today I got to do my own thing!! Yes,YES,YES!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAKAO!!! :D :D

At times I wonder how carefully we protect our feelings and ourselves from hurt.This attitude may prevent you from making mistakes,or trying out newer things in life,but we are more than happy taking good care of ourselves. Wont say tht's wrong,coz your first responsibility lies towards yourself.But the problem begins when people carry it too far. You wont tell someone how much you love him/her,coz you may lose tht person.You wont play against estd players,coz you may lose.You wont let others know about ur feelings for them,coz chances are they might misunderstand or even worse,think too much of themselves.And in both cases you might lose them.You wont love,coz it hurts.You were hurt once,so you wont love again.Heck,this is not what they meant when they said learn from your mistakes.It means,learn and improve.Nobody said stop living or loving. You dont like Maths/Social Sciences coz you fail in those subjects.You lose your marks there.Some even believe,if you laugh too much today,y...

Sometimes we build walls around us,not to block out people,but to see who takes the efforts to bring it down....

Today I saw a signboard which had a Fractured hand drawn on it.Below was written,"All kinds of repairs undertaken".

This one of the rare occassions where am opining on something I'm yet to have full knowledge of. Have heard of networks and their importance.Of Alumni helping out their alumnus.Over the past few weeks I've seen how it works.Their's a job opening in your company,and you flock to your B-school and get it filled.You apply your resources first.And more often than not,the seat is filled.How fair is this practice? I've read about internal sources of recruitment,where the employees refer their pals/acquaintances for job vacancies.Saves lotsa cost to the company.But at who's cost?Such kind of practices lead to formation of clusters/sub groups in the company,which in turn promotes favouratism. Infact,in my college itself,there's one gang of all Gujju students,one gang of all delhites and so on...the telugu gang even has its own Y! group and club outings! What's wrong with us?? Why try to form such groups wherever you go? Understood,you are away frm ur place and findi...

The 3 weeks of mah Summers have taught me these:- Meetings schd to begin at 11 never get started before 11.30. Sometimes,it's advisable to do what's to be done and not use ur brains. When the Boss is talking,listen.Or atleast pretend to. Keep calling up the PM at odd hours,asking queries abt the project.'Show' her u r working, after all. If you are a bunch of people doing different projects,but aiming at the same deadline,make sure u stay ahead,or atleast stay with them on the progress front.Lagbehind,and u've had it. Dont do extra work.The Boss will invariably ask you do some more. When the PM shouts at u,screaming that u r behind the schd,listen quietly.Dont ask,"Is there anything I can do abt it,Sir?" Always have one trump card hidden.The moment the Boss says you havnt done enough, produce it. Dont take it to heart when the PM says you've got potential and you can do better.It's just a ploy. When the PM is gettin...